Allison´s Blog

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“Which is worth more, a crowd of thousands, or your own genuine solitude?
Freedom, or power over an entire nation?”
A little while alone in your room will prove more valuable than
anything else that could ever be given you.”- rumi

I hate being alone! It’s my most difficult thing to do, ever! I don’t even need to be talking to someone, but just knowing there is another heartbeat in the room with me is so comforting.

The problem with this addiction is that I very rarely leave time to think about what I am doing and where I am going. I love to distract myself with what other people are doing because then I don’t have to focus on me and where I am going and what I am doing. Wow… pretty good strategy.

I find that I often feel lost if there isn’t another person around for me to cheer on or support. I like to think of myself, romantically, as the ultimate muse! But really, when it comes down to it, I am scared shitless to find out what I really want out of life. Like somehow when I figure it out it makes it worse if I don’t accomplish it. If I can keep things vague then I wont have to worry about succeeding or failing. I can just float through life on the successes of everyone else! Ahhh! That is so parasitic!

Well… la di da… part of my struggle!

It is so strange to think that this could be the last season of Smallville. It has been such a huge part of my life for the last 6 and a half years. Part of me is so unbelievably excited to think about moving on to the next chapter of my life and the other part of me is terrified of branching out to anything new. Change is so exhilarating!

Thanks so much for all of my beautiful birthday wishes and the fantastic contributions on AMO! I am going to be signing for quite some time now! It is so lovely to feel so supported!

Ciao for now!
Allison

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